Miscarriage

This is a topic that really hits home with me.  I am choosing to blog about miscarriage, only because I had a close friend that lost her baby the same time that I did.  She posted a few poems that really touched me.  I realized that because she had the courage to talk about something that was extremely difficult to experience,  she was able to bring someone else comfort.  I hope that this post will do the same.   

For some reason, knowing that other women have had to say goodbye to their babies--babies that they have grown to love through the bond that only mother's can fully appreciate--helps me to not feel so alone.  Through this experience, I have come to understand that it is good to grieve.  I know that my baby had a spirit, or I would not have felt such a loss.  I have spent a lot of time on my knees, until I have felt a measure of understanding about the Lord's plan for me and my baby.  His plan is a greater plan than my own.  My heart goes out to women who have to undure this trial.  And I hope that reading these poems will touch others, as much as it did me.   


Piece of my Heart:
How was it to be that I now am robbed of such joy?
Of watching you grow or finding out if you’re a girl or boy.
Never did I get to hear your cries or even see your tears,
Or kiss your little brow and hug away your fears.

I am just left here now with pain and few memories,
Of the days that were happy with you inside of me.
For you were loved and wanted oh so much,
What I would give just to have felt your touch.

The hours crawl by yet the time does not seem to slow,
I want to scream out to the world you are gone, why don’t they know?
How is the world still turning when I feel it should have stopped?
Why are people laughing and living when it feels like I can not?

Not enough tears can be shed to express the love we have for you,
No words can describe what we all wanted to be able to do.
I would have just held you and breathed in your sweet smell,
Shouted with joy and phoned all the people we wanted to tell.

But this time we called loved ones with the sad sad news,
That too little were you to live among us and we were meant to lose.
But nothing will ever erase those twelve weeks we had together,
For a piece of my heart you now hold always and forever.
~Kerri-Anne Hinds




Little Bean:
You were my little bean,
that was created in my womb.
I laid in bed at night excited,
and now I'm full of gloom.
I never understood how much
you could miss someone you never met.
And now my heart aches so bad,
that it fills me with regret.
Was there something I did wrong?
How could this come to be?
Your little face, your hands, your feet,
is something I'll never see.
I loved you oh so much,
its something that cannot be explained.
Now these feelings of anger and jealousy,
make me feel ashamed.
You are my angel baby,
and that I know is true.
God is holding you now,
and listening to you cue.
You are in Heaven looking down,
watching mommy cry.
I wish you were here,
but then I know that this is not goodbye.
~ Sarah Twigg